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Friday, March 9, 2012

life is changing

Today our oldest child turns 18!  ITs such a weird time for me. i realized she is no longer my responsiblity legally! For 18 years ive been legally bound to feed, clothe, educate, house, etc. Im having a hard enough time dealing with one being legal age, next year it will be another one!!! I feel like all my ducklings are getting ready to leave my nest! I used to think this was a good thing, a fun thing,,,sooo not the case!!!! Im feeling lost, scared, and so wanting to regain my authority!!!! UGHHH !!!!!! I want to be able to continue to protect them all! protect them from the things that they dont even realize exhist in this awful world! i know some parents cant wait till their kids are 18 because they can sit back and relax, NOW i think the real worry begins!!! We have one after another turning 18 not even getting a break! i want to turn back time! i wish i had 4 kiddos under 5 again!!!! it was a crazy time, but i knew i could protect them! Now with Brandi being 18 and Jessika  a year behind, id give my right arm for those toddler days!  Needing my ducklings all in a row again!

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